♠walking down memory lane is nt my favourite thing♠
Saturday, December 19, 2009 @ 3:43 PM with 1 comment(s)
oww...hurt my hand yesterday...i was cutting the grey card with the penknife n i cut my hand
there was alot of blood cos i think its a bit deep n i was really in full panic mode=(
further more i m alone at home-.-
tis morning i woke up n saw that the wound is eww n yellowish as i applied some oilment
surprisingly it doesnt hurt, the cut i mean cos i was too busy stopping the blood n when i put e oilment i fully expect it to exploded wif pain n was bracing myself for it anyway it doesn't comes, the pain that i expected is just some itchness n well ok ters some sharp pain but tts nt really painful i actually felt curious so i put more oilmentn it still doesn't hurts!
i thought i must have like u noe hurt a pulmonary artery or something n severe e nerves until i could nt felt pain then i really cos it really isn't painful. i tried moving my thumb bending it n voila more blood gush out...haiz
i wasn't panicking about the cut its jus the sight of so much blood gushing out of mi its lik i m thinking will i bleed to death?
i noe tts jux nonsense on my part but i really was abit scared
after the entire ordeal is over i think back n i will laugh at myself=( hw pathetic i m
oh well
n i was sitting in my father's car on the way to breakfast n i was lik tinking abt tt time n maybe we were a bit rude u noe...
ok i was definitely rude i mean i didnt mean to keep adding salt to the wound but i juz wasnt really thinking abt wat i was saying so i when to her blog after wards n told her u noe lik dun emo n all tt
i wasn't trying to suck up to her
but juz trying to apologise in my way as she is my friend n lik i dun wanna ruin the friendship lik someone i noe wif another someone i noe their case is a classic n though i really felt sorry abt tt i think i juz wun tell them that i noe cos its rude n i dun wanna give myself trouble.
its lik sometimes i dun even not wat i want n wat i m thinking...
i juz feel well lost?
i dunno
i was jux trying to repair hurt feelings on both side n definitely nt trying to suck up
i wun say i nv suck up to ppl be4 but tts because i was still trying to get ppl to accept mi instead of juz being who i m
tts plain dumb i i realise tt now but it took 10 yrs to get mi to understand that n i really think that if it takes tt long for mi to learn my lesson i can basically be called a retard>.<
i dun hav low IQ either
i just dun learn my lessons quick enough,
i learn them too slowly tts y i kept getting hurt again n again n again
its like a routine every year every new part of the education
its the same wif all ppl
u try to be urself wif them, they laugh at u backstab u n even juz say it in ur face
actually i prefer when they juz say it to my face instead of saying behind my back
i acknowledge the fact that i m slow in the EQ stuffs n is well still immature at tt stage so i will definitely lag behind in the emotional aspect
so wat?!
at least nw, at least in sec sch i feel better then in pri sch
pri sch sucks for mi after pri 3 every thing goes downhill
it makes mi sad
walking along memory lane is definitely nt my favourite ting to do on a saturday afternoon=(